Lost without you...

Here I am alone on a friday night... long long time since i had been alone... it's like back to the past again... sitting here all alone listening to my winamp... listening to the silent surrounding... my home is not as warm as i always hope that it will be... everyone is always busy with their own stuff... i'm like that too, guilty of all that coldness that it is now...

I'm not scared or uneasy about it or as fustrated as before... my temper now a fraction of my past self, i think i can bear alot of unhappiness and be as cold as nothing... my baby say i have alot of hatred in me... is it a bad thing? It's what makes me able to bear all these... all these coldness that co-exist whenever i'm alone... but now i'm not alone... i know i'll always have my baby around... i wan to be strong for her... i used to wan to only be accountable to myself... strong so that i can survive... so that i can count on myself to move forward in life when there is nothing to fall back on...

Having someone who is always there for you is a bonus... knowing that your family is always behond you, knowing that you have friends to accompany you on lonely nights... having someone who calls to check if you are ok... asking about how's your life... all these are a gift... but not all of us have it... some of us still live hidden behind a cloak of shadows... Let there be light, so that the world can be a better place to live in... so much competition in life - always have to be at the front, stepping over others so one can climb higher in life, live in bigger house, drive bigger cars... but that's life... at least in singapore...

Baby ah baay... where are you? Hope you are okie in KL k? ... Pat pat... my dear baby...

A Long Time....

It's been so long since i write my blog... a few months already at least. Been very busy lately as usual (what's NeW!)... I have gain a darker tan to my face and arms but not everywhere else... so ugly... and it's from working not at sentosa! so you guys if you wan a good tanning place - selatar is the place to visit!

My Baby's at KL right now... and i apply leave today as i'm very tired to go tortune myself at work... been working ot alot lately... but i'm afraid my ot pay might not tally... seems that there are some days they left out. You PiGGGGs better pay me! Haha...

Miss my baby... but i'm on msn with her right now... heh.. she so poor thing so busy lately also... somemore work til so late but no OT pay! These few months we had alot of programs like watching plays at NLB - TiTaDao a local play which is in hokkien.... haha... and we watch 2 movies - 300 & Music and Lyrics! We celebrate so many people's birthday like Doreen, Mom's & Corine! My dad birthday on 15th March but we nv celebrate! Haha... we went sentosa to the new cafe del'mo... it's featured in the new paper and we saw glenn ong and jean danker there.... A very expensive place tho... drinks add a lot of water... lol

Finally i know when is my type course liao it's in mid may... now i can plan my overseas trip with my baby.... heh... must wait til monday then she return... must take care k baby.... love you! Muack!